Why do I feel useless?

It’s a feeling that life has not been how we dreamed of it being. Please let me find something that I’m good at, maybe decent enough if I’m consistent with it, then again, I don’t know what consistency even feels like. I want to be better, I also know I’ve not had much help in life, and it makes me feel very alone, too much of anything is bad, and I’ve been alone for far too long. I don’t really know what to do, or what it’s like to feel again, it feels like everyone else does. I’m in pain, perhaps you are too, not feeling good enough, feeling all over the place, feeling, well, useless. But, and there is almost always a but, I breathe today, I see today, I’m writing, and you’re reading this today, matter of fact right now is when we can go and do whatever we want. So I am going to finish writing this, post this regardless of how not good it might not be, and play some video games. Very unproductive, perhaps, but it’s better than just laying down on my phone while the time flies. I’ve finally posted in 2024, and you’ve found this somehow, and you’re also going to go do something. Even if it’s something you know you might want to do or feels unproductive, stop laying there feeling useless, do something even if it’s nothing. I will try and workout later but not expect to, so I don’t disappoint, and I will be back tomorrow doing something whether here or editing and keep trying and trying because life is beautiful, and I will live that feeling one day, let’s try and start today.